SWEET DREAMS

I am an explorer in the truest sense. You won't believe I can search for almost any random, insignificant thing on the web. And with my vacations on, this exploration is getting even better. So be it trying to figure ‘Why was Manini de replaced in a new dance reality show’? or hunt for ‘a few acquaintances’ blogs’, or better still look for synopsis of films being played on the English movie channels, I have thoroughly bored myself to death. Yeah…Reena…the Internet explorer!!!

So…this incident that I am sharing occurred on the 4 of July, i.e on my birthday. After attending friends’ calls, by 1 am I went off to sleep. When I got up in the morning there were a few images that crossed my mind. For instance, me driving to college, climbing onto the building, eating a kilo of cake etc….When I tried to piece whatever I could recall, I had a smile on my face. An expression of content, of satisfaction:). For, whenever I dream of myself climbing on anything elevated, the dream ends with me falling from it. And I wake up with a jerk and a faster heart-beat. This has been happening to me from the past 22 years. But somehow, on the 4th of July, I dreamt the following:

“I drive to college, climb on top of the building, and sucessfully land after tying a flag to the topmost tower. My parents suddenly come to check how have I been doing and its almost 11 pm by now. And they ask me if I want them to stay. I say ‘No’ and reach home safely(inspite of the fact that my car doesn’t work!) Sigh!”

Obviously it makes no sense….But certain bits like- the drive to college, the journey back home, the flag on the tower, all these are activities I dread doing. What’s more for a CHANGE, I DIDN’T FALL from the building. And it was then that I told myself that finally it was time for self-introspection. Perhaps things will start brightening up. Perhaps I will grow as a more confident person from now on.

Convinced that the dream was an indication that that I had overcome my phobia for heights and deriving my own meanings from it, I ran a Google search on ‘dream interpretations’. I bumped into this website- http://www.dreammoods.com/
I cannot comment on its authenticity, but believe me the interpretation it offered to my dreams was an apt description of my personality. I also realised that ‘falling’ is one of the commonest dreams that most experience. I was so excited that I decided to further explore on the common themes my dreams are based on. Like snakes all over my ceiling, or me stranded in the middle of the road to name a few.
I am indeed amazed. On reading all that, I was taken back to a time when I used to stay in Madras.That was more than a decade back! On most occasions I have a faint memory of my dream when I wake up in the morning. However, that day was different. I must have been 5-6 years then. I woke up crying and clinged to my parents who were lying next to me on my bed. They began comforting me, as I began recounting what for me was nothing less than a nightmare!

“I am in a familiar place. Then I draw water from the well, and decide to sprinkle it on the huge tree that I see next to me. And instead of the roots, I attempt to throw water on the top most tip of the tree. And as I am doing this the steel pot falls on my toe injuring my finger as it turns blue"

On listening to this, my parents pacified me by saying that “Day dreams never come true”. But somehow that nightmare remained etched in my memory for a long time. And about five years later the exact incident occurred while I was vacationing at my aunt’s place. And there was a blood clot on my left toe. I suffered the excruciating pain by applying the pain balm Iodex. A year later, Navratri celebrations were in full swing at Mumbai, where I was residing then. I prayed to the Goddesss that the blue nail on my left toe, half broken, comes out on its own. And Lo!!!!my prayers were answered almost immediately. I went home, washed my legs and suddenly the blue nail was out leaving way for a more pedicured white one!

Ever since that day, I have wished for ‘sweet dreams’. At times I get really bizzare dreams. Dreams that have been influenced from the day gone by. Dreams I wish never come true. I dose off to a good day’s sleep as my insecurities, my fear, my anxieties all play out in my thoughts. For instance, if I get a dream that I am not able to think as I am answering a question in my examination room, I strive to study harder.

There must be something to those dreams which try telling us what we often tend to overlook. What we so fear to accept. What we so find difficult to confront-Our Future… Hmm…as I conclude all I can say is go ahead..and see if you can unlock those hideen mystries to your dreams:)